and you said.....

word

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 04:05:35 GMT

new lj

the_holdup

hello, wat?

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 12:49:14 GMT

i got another job today at foxboro skate park, so thats cool, im going to the beach wednesday i need a date any one interested?

amazing

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 08:05:35 GMT

today ihang out, went to the rope swing, had a party typed and essay, got drunk, had fun, good friends and good times, i love my summer

yesterday

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 19:47:58 GMT

was fucking amazing ,
first i had work unitl like 1230, at 1 boardman and tom pick me up and we went to fitchburg skate park=awsome, 6 tom, boardman and i goto brad's deli, but first on the way tom saved a turtle for certain death ( yeah tom) then we hung out wiht the turtle, we named him mario, he is awsome, then we ate of food from brads deli at tom's and mario played wiht toms cat, tom's cat love mario, toms cat meowed at mario, toms cat tried to hump mario, we took mario and left toms horny cat , and went to the rope swing, on the way we sadi peace to mari and released him into a awsome pond, then walked past a lama farm, we hung out wiht the lamas, we touched the lamas and named them , david spade was one of the lamas , he sniffed us and hung out, then we went to the rope swing, and some girl came and we could see their vaginas that was funny, i mooned everyone, ( not funny) , the we went back to toms and drank and jamed= awsome, wat i got sing along!= amazing, then we went ridding at the brick banks for like 3 hrs, at 3 we went back to tom , tom's parents where home me and tom ate sandwiches and went to bed, i slept on his couch, his cat didn't hump me. the end

2 weeks my ass

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 11:22:33 GMT

yeah 2 weeeks is was more like half a night, all i got was a seperated shoulder, rolled ankle and a concusion, stupid doctors, im fine im m riddin again.

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 19:46:10 GMT

so yesterday i got hit by a car im in the hospital and all i can do is use my computer for the next 2 weeks so hopefluy someone reads this

summer time

Thu, 26 May 2005 01:31:04 GMT

and it's raining , i haven't been updateing alot due to wokr and stupid shit,but im back so make plans!

why is leo in my bed

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 12:09:08 GMT

um i jsut woke up for work and leo in asleep on the futon, how we love it, but i seriously dont realy remember falling asleep so eh i dont know, it's 8 am , not sure how i feel aboutt that, i want to go back to bed i may ever get out, i have to go to the rmv, that sux, i have a crush on alex kelly, i have sixe toes on one foot and four on the other( not really though) umm i can sing like a dickens ( again lies) i fight crime every day ( not really) hopefully it's nice out and alex will coe visit ( yeah right) blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah hmmmm blha i see blah fuck blah im done

so nice

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 18:18:38 GMT

sure wish i had someone special to share it with other than leo and emily or kristen, no offence to them but , you get wat im saying, you smell what im cookin

emily

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 00:57:59 GMT

so yeah your the only one the cares, so emily is awosme

hey

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 17:40:42 GMT

um read if you acctually read my journal just let me know otherwise it's rather pointless to update dont ya think?

um

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 19:01:07 GMT

updated

say it out loud

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 01:34:51 GMT

say it out loud
say it like you mean
like you did before
tomorrow is growing old

beyound the traffic in the air
let the air inflate
you lungs
breathe in long and deep
kiss me goodnite
kiss me goodbye

Say it now
say it out loud
like you mean it

what do you take me for
just let me go
let me forget you
say GOODBYE

leaving

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 21:15:35 GMT

im doing it, i have to no matter how i do it, even if im homeless im going, there nothgin left for me here, and i have nothgin else to do but run so off i go like a fucking marathon runner, ill burn all the bridges i ahvet o so as not to hurt the ones i love, the original plan was pennsylvania, but i hate learned to hate the snow, so florida here i come, i dont have a job lined up i dont have a plan and no money , but i young, brash and hopefully and im hoping for the best, so long, goodbye , farewell

?

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 01:37:38 GMT

have i told you how much i love the rain, to hear the pitter patter on my room, that gentle beating on the tin that makes me sleep so well, i love the rain, the smeell, the taste , the feeling of the millions of drops falling down the back of my neck, i love the rain, i have to beacause since you've gone , thats the only thing i will ever love again...

another day

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 03:50:25 GMT

today was an ordinary day for me i couln't sleep last night so i was tired all day, thoughts of one girls running through my head, so i did laundry and watched movies, listened to music and came to the decision that im not gonna chase girls any more no of you seem to be worth maybe im conceided, an asshole ,a loser what ever its me and it seems to be fitting. i kinda feel better after thinking about it, i i realized that being alone isn't that bad, i went to the old spot in my home town to night and ate some wendys while listening to the starting line, it made me think of kaelan and some of my old friends that i avent seen in a while but it didn't really care that much, high school is over , and so is my childhood, it's time to grow up and find myself , i owe my family that, i've been a lost cause for far too long now, i no longer can handle the idea of being a failure, even if it means im not gonna be happy for a long time, im willing to try, my friends aren't always gonna be there the way they are now, i want them to know how much the really me to me i love all you guys soo much, leo, adam, emily, kenny,and tim. i love you guys so much thank you for everything and dont forget me when im gone. im on my way , wish me luck and good bye<3

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 19:42:07 GMT

You sat me down beside myself
To show me all the reasons I was wrong for you
Was this for real? It's hard to tell
'Cause it was such a beautiful mess we had got into

I'm gonna overcome this, paper hearts can't win this time
And all along I should have known this wasn't your dream, it was mine
I know you wanted me to give up this life to be
Everything I was back when you had the hands my heart was in

I was never good at goodbye...

Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face

When we were starting out, you believed in me without a doubt
You were the finest thing to happen to a boy like me
It's so much harder now, I wanna try and tell you how
There is so much love in me, even though it's hard to see

And I was never good at goodbye...

Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes

Today I couldn't stay awake
Feels like I'm drowning in this firewater lake
I won't be sleeping much tonight
It's not the same without you lying by my side
(Right beside me)

Can I swallow this bottle whole?
So this brain in my head can forget your face
Can I swallow this bottle whole?
'Cause I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes

I know you wanted me to give up my life to be
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
Everything I am when you're the only thing that I can see
(Can I swallow this bottle whole?)
I'm sorry but you're not the, not the only one for me
(So this brain in my head can forget your face)

You left me here beside myself
Left me with all the reasons why I was wrong for you

this is gonna be complicated

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 22:22:58 GMT

so today is wednesday im chillin wiht the homies, havin a good time, rididng chillin, smokin, and riddin, im gettin better, i tihnk i dunno , im finally having fun wiht it yay, um yep, so who wants to hang out, im lookin for people to ride wiht around home so i can always find someone and have agood time, and wat, no so are there any ladies who wanna hang out maybe, hehe lol jk

super day

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 17:32:56 GMT

i woke around 1030, bored have to go the the docters at 4 to have me knee and my nakle looked at, im a pussy, im bored, still, umm yeah dont really know where im goin wiht this, lol

sat nite means bike night

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 15:54:42 GMT

yeah yeah it's saturday, wow sorry i thought i was thug, but anyway it's saturday and after being well flat out ridiculous all week i can finally go and ride hope fully my knee doesn't hurt and i can ride a full session, i guess we'll see , i dunno should be fun if your in the area and know how to get to MSC in shewbury aka the shewsbury skate park stop by and say hi, it's gonna be a good time

well u dont say

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 00:07:45 GMT

it's high school vacation and everyone i know was like hey take that week off so we can hang out. FUCK YOU! i took the afternoons off so i could still make money and yet none of you have asked to hang out, so fuck all of you, im dont want to talk to you lying fucks anymore, most people i used to be friends i dont like anymore, you bother me, it's like your all trying to to be somthing your not, i dont know if i just didn't see it before or if i was doing the same thing but i hate it, and i f i was i hate me, i know how i am, i dont know what i wanna do wiht my life but i know who i am, so all you fucks who keep giving me shit fuck offf suck a dick and never talk to me again

today is the day

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 15:36:26 GMT

call me if you need a rdie to the show you need to call me by 4 o clock

sunday

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 01:14:56 GMT

my show is sunday get your ass there, if you knwo what good for you, if you goin as my date dont bother showing up... so yeah go the show and be happy and dance and want not

there are somethings i just cant let go of

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 17:50:12 GMT

theres only one girl i love well loved but shes gone, im terrified of growing up, i want to start over, i want to be something, i duno this is all kinds of lame this is the worst journal entry ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah NO!

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 00:46:52 GMT

the messege before this can be completely overlooked because i did not get it so yeha whatever.......moving on